I answered some psych stuff and here are the results...

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


Find out yours: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Sorry Che I can't answer this...

How do you get over someone you wouldn't want to get over with in the first place?

How do you tell yourself that everything is OK when you feel like your world is not the same anymore since he came?

How do you regret the second chance you took with him when you know it was well worth it coz you might not be able to have another?

How do you make yourself numb when you have been so clueless for so many years about dealing with heartbreak?

I thought i was strong enough for this but unfortunately, i am just like other people who break apart when love comes along..

*shoot!! who would have thought i will be saying all these things?! I am so used to dealing with other's love problems because i had nothing to fret about love. And now i do and i just hate feeling this..*

We had an argument.
then out of the blue

you hit me.

hit me with force.
Never thought you could do that.

I thought I knew you.
But now I know you more

It's the first time someone did that
and you never said sorry.

I promise you it will never happen again... EVER!

Demmet!

Apples

A friend of mine just sent me this image. i don't know why. maybe to cheer me up? I wonder. oh well... i'll just share it here...

If Karma Were True...

Then my new year's wish would be a reversal of this wretched fate. Or if not, a deep and true understanding of my current karmic cycle.

Everything is in a disarray. Everything doesn't make sense now. The light of clarity evades my grasp. I am lost.

Can someone just pass by and save me from this? I'm drowning and gasping for air. Someone stop this unrelenting rain.

Last Photos of the Year (i guess)

Lunch at Guava, Serendra

Just decided to have a lunch out on the last work day of the year...

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Red Eye
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Solar Entertainment Marketing & Sales Christmas Party 2007

Started out with using Billy's SLR, but since it lost Battery life I switched to my P&S Fuji. so here are the back up photos till i get a hold of the shots i made with Billy's...

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Cityscape

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Last Saturday of 2007

Made big decisions and gone on little adventures...

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Ivan Transit
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no matter how hard we try, we find our way back with each other.
I know it doesn't make sense. But here we are.

You are fine. You are nice. There might be sparks but, I don't want to be into you. I think I can only start seeing you If I know for sure that it is safe. No doubts. 'Coz you are not the only one in my mind.

Will you stick with me or will you just walk away? you don't have to worry. I am used to it. Let's figure this out one last time. Will you whisk me away and make me forget? Too bad, you have me with a fucked up mind.

I'm sorry but, I must be fair.

What is the difference between loving a person and being in love with a person?

Loving a person is giving what you have. Doing what you can for the other. You will never want to hurt the person. In Love? It's being stupid and losing yourself. A blur of passion and reason. You will do anything and even an extra mile for the person that you are in love with. Being in love is giving more what you can offer. A leap of faith. An acceptance of everything.

To love is a choice but to be in love, well you just find yourself in it.

You can never really define the difference between the two.

But, I know that I am still "in love" with someone. Something that is wrong and never should be anymore. I know I can't and I shouldn't but still I do. And it pains me everyday. I want it to end already to make it go away. But it's hard. I'm surprised I'm having a hard time about it.

I'm just a fucked up guy searching for his own peace of mind. I'm not perfect.

Two in one day

Two albums...

Snapshots #9 Greenbelt and the Compass

I accompanied my friend, Ivan, to watch the Golden Compass at Glorrietta. We decided to kill time at Powerbooks GB3 after...

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Ivan the Pure
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and then after that later that night...

Icebergs at Timog Area

Went to Icebergs in the Morato Area after having a hearty meal after a quest...

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Neckie necky
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Thanksgiving

It was peachie's thanksgiving when Trillanes Decided to badger the Republic, the people, the Manila Pen and of course the party. Not to be outdone by the sudden curfew, we rushed to Batasan Hills and stuffed ourselves with Turkey and alcohol, among others...

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Pepe la Peachie
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zero to none

All I wanted was to just live in a peaceful and very neutral life. A life devoid of battles and drama. A perfect picture of a lazy old man sitting by the edge of a stream and waiting for fish to tug at the line.

But, growth jumps on you with a serious thump.

Instead, I get a barrage of serious blows to the face that leave me toothless, weak-kneed and bruised. A very despicable scene where you hear the crowd cheering on for my demise. I barely roll with the punches and get hit by the boot a thousand times.

And yet I still manage to stand up and dust myself off, bravely wearing my scars. Steadily walking towards the next tempest of madness with a glimmer in the eye and a broken smile.

yep

Even in the darkest hour,
the light of hope springs eternal...

Never give up.

Good Luck

Juno: so... I'm sorry... I've thought about it very hard. Really really hard and it's this...
Mac:...
Juno: We're not ready and we seem to just be using each other. Maybe it shouldn't be us. Maybe we have this to make us realize how f*%ked up we are. We couldn't just fool each other, fool ourselves and other people forever. I just want to make it clean.
Mac: I agree. We shouldn't just crap anytime, anywhere or with anyone. I know it's wrong and I've been denying it. I'm sorry, too... So, this is it I guess...
Juno: I think so. It's for the better... We don't want to end up getting trapped and hurt in the long run.
Mac: I like you, you know? I was willing to give it a chance.
Juno: But, It's not enough.
Mac: I know...

Mac: I wonder what will happen to us... will we ever get saved?
Juno: The only saving that we can get is from ourselves...
Mac: Good luck...

Boombox Tropezz

What do you do when you're stressed and bummed out from work? Then use the company's event to water it down with fun and alcohol with officemates.

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Infernal Tonic
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Boombox Eastwood

Got hammered really well that night. I enjoyed the sights and sounds, thanks to Margarita King's shot Me Babies... Then off we went to Jack's Loft (an ample name) to cap the night with food and drinks. Then, thinking that the night wasn't finished, we dashed to Katipunan to water the whole night's buzz with several Red Horses and Granmas at the Meatshop. No wonder we ended up sleeping over at Armi's place in Antipolo.

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Jett Pangan
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Lines and Rules

It's all about lines. The finish line at the end of a challenge. Waiting in line for a chance to be on the spotlight. And then there's the most important line, the line separating you from the people you work with. It doesn't help to get too familiar. To make friends. You need boundaries between you and the rest of the world. Other people are far too messy. It's all about lines. Drawing lines in the sand, and praying like hell nobody crosses them.

At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out, they fence you in. Life is messy, that's how we're made. So you can waste your life drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them. But, there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross.But, here's what I know: If you're willing to throw caution to the wind and take a chance, the view from the other side might be spectacular.

-0-0-0-0

Intimacy is a four syllable word for: Here is my heart and soul, please grind into a hamburger and enjoy. It's both desired, and feared. Difficult to live with, and impossible to live without. Intimacy also comes attached to various things. There are some things you can't escape. And other things you just don't want to know.

I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when you've crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming, and I don't know how you fit it on a map. You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. As for rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something we have to define for ourselves.

Encounter

Last night

As I was walking past your office building
you chased after me

you said hi. I said hello
You asked if I was okay, and I weakly said yes.
You smiled and I was okay.

I want to make a step after all.

Shackled. curled.

Never expected to feel this so soon. So foolish. I am cloaked with confusion and at the same time with fear. I am not supposed to feel this way with you. But, every signal in my body , every electrical impulse that speeds past my nerves convulse with elation.

Wounds are wounds even if they don't hurt anymore. And yet you still poke it with your fingertips. You don't know where I came from nor I with where you're from. But, we are heading towards the same direction.

I am staked where I am. I fear making a step. This shoudn't have happened anyway. Damn you, this is all your fault.

All Hallow's Eve

An unbelievable season of loss and gain. Never expected to survive. Surprisingly, my life is not that spooky like before. Perhaps, I have been through worse to consider menial things to be horrendous.

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The Make-up Artiste
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October 27, 2007

We all need answers

They say I have the gift in finding answers for other people regarding their lives.

But, I never find answers for my own.

I just need one. At least once.
to have someone find answers for me.
in this crazy little world.

Just once
someone might just happen to pass by
and share his umbrella
and hide me from this unrelenting rain.